Going through the picture boxes and looking at my life was a very intriguing process. On some level what I was doing was unpacking my life. Does that make sense? At first I was looking at the pictures with a particular filter if you will. But with time, the filter changed and eventually I hope it will be lifted entirely so that I can see things just as they are.

Death is an uncomfortable topic for most of us and often a painful experience we struggle to make sense of and accept. When I decided I wanted to launch my blog platform talking about death, I had no idea just how poignant that was going to be or how much death I was going to face.

After a string of deaths, I found myself in a vulnerable state, raw and depleted. It was clear to me that anyone could easily slip into a state of despair and depression or find themselves with PTSD.

My long time boyfriend, Mark, died unexpectedly in September 2020. This is not my first blog about it. Needless to say, it was a traumatic experience that truly rocked my world. I would definitely say it takes a lot to rock my world and I guess I needed to be reminded on some level that it was possible.

If you’ve been following my blog you know some of the details of my boyfriend's sudden death in September 2020. It was a shocking experience to say the least being that it took place in my bed in my bedroom. Yeah. But before I get into that, for those of you who don’t know me, let me start by sharing a little bit about myself.

Maybe you’ve read one of my previous blogs about trauma and how there is a path to grace through that trauma. I shared that up until my long time boyfriend's death in late 2020, I really hadn't had much of anything that I would call traumatic happen to me. Well I found out through connections made through my journey experiences that my body had been through some significant trauma that I did not realize until 7 years after it happened.

Death, loss, and trauma. These are big topics. Today I want to talk about how to find the grace inside the trauma. It may not be apparent, but if you look, you can find some kind of opportunity in whatever happens in your lives. Maybe not while you are in the middle of it, but when things settle and you choose to make the time for quiet reflection and to look for that opportunity, something will surface.

Death is an uncomfortable topic for most of us and often a painful experience we struggle to make sense of and accept. When I decided I wanted to launch my blog platform talking about death, I had no idea just how poignant that was going to be or how much death I was going to face.

The twists and turns my life, consciousness, and soul have experienced recently are pretty radical. Some people would even say tragic. Up until September 13th, I would have said that 2020 had been a truly phenomenal year for me and the work I’m here to share on the planet. But September 13 changed everything.